stop and gone

to her...i'm sorry

2006-08-01T19:22:00.000-07:00

back here again to this gift tt special some1 had done for me...
after last night i realise..how useless, selfish, dumb..wadever negative things u haf...tt's me...
dear..i never meant us to go tt way...i only wan to love euu so truly & dearly...only last night i fully understand m mistake...euu haf been very gracious by givin me all the time all the patience..all the waitin time....but i didn't cherish all properly... i only ask for euu to gif me this last chance to prove everything tt i stil love euu & will treasure euu.... i will hold on to my last breath to prove it..... i never felt so shamed, sad, break down... i ran out of tears den i used blood...but heaven made a fool out of me instead...

i never meant to break ur heart...never ever...i rather die den do tt...

i stil love euu as i do & i will in the future...

if my time is really runnin up...i stil wan to love euu till the end....

days to july 15th

2005-06-22T03:12:00.000-07:00

everyone must be thinking why am i so free to put up post everyday fr these few days..lol..holiday ending,,...after this i may not haf time fr any new post cause of studyin & stuff,...lol....actually..for this post is quite sad...as my unit knows that the 35th batch of NCO is passing out...& it is my squad 'SPITFIRE'...yea....the thought of it is very saddening fr me & some of my squadmate...though we do make some jokes abt it to make ourself feel btr..bt we can actually see from each of our faces that we are actually quite sad about it....hope some of u can read this post...

In this post, i would like to dedicate a japanese song( actaulli it's the lyrics lar ) for u guys the 35th batch NCO squad spitfire & also to all my officers, my juniors & to my frens from other unit that are passing out soon ( here are the lyrics the english translation, i would get the song up ASAP )

band name: X-JAPAN
song title: ENDLESS RAIN:

"I'm walking in the rain,
though everything seems to be hurting me for some reason.
There is only nothing.
Just kill me now ... as I roam forever.
Until I can forget your love.

To me sleep is a confusing, narcotic
that only quiets the beating heart.
All my love seems to flow from my body like a heart felt memory.
I keep my love for you to myself.

*Endless rain, fall on my heart In this wounded soul. Let me forget, all of the hate, all of the sadness,

Days of joy, days of sadness slowly pass me by.
As I try to hold you, you are vanishing before me.
You're just an illusion.
When I am awake, my tears have dried in the sands of sleep.
I'm a rose blooming in the desert.

It's a dream, I'm in love with you.
Hold me warmly in your arms.
I awake from my dream
I can't find my way without you

The dream is over.
I can no longer hear the voice of your gentle words.
Floating off tear stained walls.
So awakening in the morning, I'll move into my dreams ...
until I can forget your love.

repeat *

Endless rain, fall on my heart, in this wounded soul.
Let me forget, all of the hate, all of the sadness.
Endless rain, let me stay a memory in your heart.
Let me take in your tears, take in your memories."

the feeling i got after hearing this song is sad..the tune is filled with sadness but still has the spirit to carry on...i remembered watching the concert of this band from a vcd..this was their last song & when they finished, th fans still sang....the fans didn't want them to go....it was their last concert before they disband.....just like now...the last few days to POP.....will our lives change? how will it change.... ?

last week of holiday

2005-06-21T05:50:00.000-07:00

Haix...june holiday so fast fly past...now is the last week....next week will be starting for the big 'O'( not ovulation, it's O LEVEL)....now it's not the time to let down our guard on our studies..buck up & go for it..i have something to say bt it may be too late lar...well..i had this mind set that there are still many june holiday bt O level we only want to take it once.....yea...
Haha......some may find wad i say very lame bt it's true leh...lol..sherleen even said tt it is a wise thinking..of course lar..it's frm me mar..WAHAHAHAHHAHA..kk...relax....haha....bixia bdae next week....hahaha..hint hint...lol.......sochenda muggin lik mad now for next weeks exam...so last minute..lol....haha....
Anyway...in this post i would like to introduce the lyrics a few songs....1stly from the band The Killers the title of the song is " Mr Brightside" thsi song has a sentence that captured me,...here's how the lyrics goes:
"Coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fineGotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss
It was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And its all in my head
But she's touching his chest now
He takes off her dress now
Let me go
And I just can't look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabye
Choking on your alibis
But its just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
'Cos I'm Mr Brightside"
yea...tt's the lyrics the phrase 'destiny is calling me' captured me...i find it so true for all of us yea...

'Destiny is calling me...' from the killers song mr brightside...

the last....

2005-06-15T23:06:00.000-07:00

good things come to an end.......
i hate this phrase....why? can anyone tell me.....
4 years agao..we were wearing short pants.
when friday=fall-in for pumping day..lolx
bt it's now over..
now...all long pants..has the word instructor on our camp shirts
mature people..NCO's...i felt sad that all 4 years of hardhsip & fun has to end...
the weather spoke my true feelings....for now..it is last page of our NPCC life..
july 15th......the day which the full stop will be place for all of us...olso the day which spitfire's legacy will end...
ah xia..thx fr writing my name in ur blog....now is my turn...ah xia ...rar..tralalala....banana..haha,,,,all this link to u...happy? nvm wait till it's reaching 1st july den my blog will haf one post especially for u...take care...

spitfire..the legacy will never end in our life...may the juniors bring the unit to better success & do a much better job then us....

2005-06-01T23:57:00.000-07:00

HOLIDAES R HERE PEEPS...

heard this on the vcd show of band of brothers episode 10...said by th main character: ' thought the war has ended the men are still dying...' i saw tt yesterdae saw 2 men tryin to kill themselves..teh war we been trhu fr 4 years is over bt the men are still dying....it's true...To those who are involved, live life lik u want it to be..dun let events in life control how u live life....u only live once...live it with happiness fun love care & frens. Dun live it with anger hatred jealousy....
june holidays are here....to all u peeps out there take care & enjoy...olso work hard fr ur o levels dudes..never give up, give in ur best shot & u can do it,,,jux do it....
tmr gt calss BBQ...haha...can gather as a class in a less formal way liao..haha....hey guys enjoy & dun b late...haha..east coast again....tt place again....the same sea & same piece of sky again...maybe heaven want me to go back there again & rememeber the past...
hey soh..u very evil, dun reply my smses.....i come add liao....take care to all..
"One Life Live it...." from the M1 advertisement.....

mix feeling....sori..sad...happy...

2005-05-10T05:30:00.000-07:00

here it goes.....firstly..i wuld lik to apologise to my squadmates fr gettin them into trouble wif me...sori the officers fr letting them down.......secondly....to our late dr wee kim wee.....u r a great man....u left a legacy & a role model fr the late generations to follow...happy....mid end liao............wad's the meaning of life...still searching fr it.......tdy chinese compre the passage left me a deep impact...hope people can find wad life means

back again

2005-04-10T03:15:00.000-07:00

yo to all....me back again after much complain frm pple all AROUND ME....LOLX.....YES YES....back again...we lost the competition the last time bt nvm...lolx...stil the same old life ...lolx..sian man...chinese old level in 50++ daes..may all takin chinese all the best...haix...sad case gt mid year all of the sudden....damn the school man.....haix.....me is fine partly....jux so sian studyin all teh time..house com drivin me NUTS...super damn slow..now usin my best buddy com..super fast..nice nice......lolx.........gtg....gt tuition..smell ya guys soon...take care pple....take care alwaes.........to all my frens u guys rox...gtg

what the.....

2005-03-16T20:48:00.000-08:00

last competition for myself in NPCC...the closing chapter...

haix....tdy is my last com in NPCC...sad..nvr plae...we lost..bt nvm..we will teach the future batch & beat those bastards to a pulp.....revenge is sweet...lolx.....dunno wad the hell is happenin to me...gt sad over the last competition..bt angry wif myself fr regretting alot of things...AHHHHHHHHHHH......hell lar......mentally mad man.....jux feel lik getting away from this.....loads of homework...bt luckily i complete some liao.......to paul..i'm happy tt u make it a point fr us to gather together bt we r busy this year..so we may nt make it...i realli thankew fr the effort...1250 in the noon....at home now....listening to radio....went to my frens blogs....read abt their life..lolx..interesting...one went pale bball..become molest....the other go malaysia shop till drop.....lolx....my frens rawks......shit.....doddle board is spoilt..damn..hafta go repair soon.......sometimes i wan to run away ..........bt i can't..cause i'm merely a human.....i can't be god.....i can only be the better person by learning from my mistakes....let's hope life fr my frens & i can be better.....th closing chapter part of my life..it means the opening of the new chapter........let's hope the new chapter can be better for me.....

the world we live in......

2005-02-20T03:11:00.000-08:00

look at the environment now.......is this the world we use to live in.....no...it is not...just saw the sky yesterdae...how dusty it is.....how are we goin to live in such a place..think about the future generation.....is this the piece of sky we r goin to gif them..pls stop polluting the sky..pls...it is enough...

even if there is an end of the earth......it is caused by us, humans, not the gods....

this is a serious thing i wuld lik to share to all who is readin this post..pls...tell others not to pollute the world from now onwards......the world of tmr is getting frm bad to wrost...the world is so choke up wif pollutants..we r killin our own planet....where did all those forest go to....where did the beautiful sky go to.....

to my frens...take care alwaes...we may not b together every time bt i wil alwaes remember u all..no matter wad had ahppen between us..all of u r still my frens till the end of time...

...time is lik rainwater...alwaes running down our body everysecond...it never stops.....bt we are not treasuring all this rainwater...only when we realise how important it is to us..den we try to save up all this rainwater..how much can we save up by then.....treasure all those times when it bring u gud memories..dun forget abt it...

treasure ur life..

2005-02-18T19:47:00.000-08:00

to all reading this post..1stly pls treasure ur life....this is soemthign very serious.....learn to treasure every second of it......haha....after tt is soemthign i wuld lik to talk abt...welcome myself back to my blog after lik one month hahhahahahahahahha...life sux..just this week i gt straight tuition frm mondae to sundae..siao liao arhhhhhhhhhhh
sian arh...haix..i wonder wads so gud abt me...others lik me...they r sure cock eye....yea....secondly..welcome xia to my blog......my new fren met durin a very meaningful dae..haha...tt dae..lolx..very very fun..treat gud pple to ice cream..lolx..den go take neo print..lolx..neo print..very fun..lolx...after tt go watch movie..constantine.,.haha....very very fun olso...tt dae was realli enjoyable..lolx..haha...hope to haf more of this cahnces more b4 i leave this world..haha....
lastly i wuld li to thanks princess, xia, jian & fu fr makin tt dae a wonderful; & unforgetable one.....thankew my frens....haix..daes in the unit are getting lesser.....damn hope i wun pass out so soon...to sherleen..haha..go fr it girl..dun miss chance lik this ok?

signin off: stopper a.k.a goner...(mpls take note of this hor xia) lolx...

27/11/2004..a day nt forgotten in my life...

2004-11-28T21:29:00.000-08:00

a wonderful day with a wonderful fren.....

A wonderful day that wun b forgotten in my life......a fruitful dae i spend wif a wonderful fren lik her...haha, ..haha..decided to ask her out on 27..haha...we meet & hang out together..

Meet in the noon..den go shop around...findin movie to watch..damn unlucky arh..go both cineleisure & plaza singapura..haha..den we shop our wae down to cathay..

Joke on the wae..haha..feel so happy lor..den she saw pple givin out the singapore idol flag...haha...den she go take it...after walkin a while she find it beri extra..haha.. after buyin the tickets, she went to stick the flag in the box & we ran off...haha..so funni man.... after tt we wnet shopping...go around isetan walk walk..den go around borders...den go to shop..haha..den she ask me wad size i wear for undergarments juz to buy boxers for her fren....haha..she realli damn funi lor..

Haha..den after tt we went scotts to makan ramen..haha...she eat the tom yam flavour till damn shiok..haha..den ltr she beri beri full..cannot walk properly..haha..... finally sat down to watch shutter..haha...quite funi lar..we even joke abt other pple in the movie lor..haha, she tried to memorise the thai language..haha.....den gt 2 girls behind us olso laughin den we realise tt we r nt the most pervertic ones in the cinema...haha...she even gt leg cramp while watching movie lor..haha..beri funi one

After the movie den we went shop somemore den ltr she stomach pain cos she ate spicy food wif cold drinks...haha..... we went far east dere walk walk see see.. went to see the clothes all beri nice..bt no cash to buy..haha..den we both hinting to one another abt the thigns we lik fr x'mas.. after tt we walk down orchard enjoyin the lighting..so nice...she even explain to me this year the light were from where de,,,,haha..den went to paragon...went in there to shop..lolx...

When we left paragon, she notice a band playin den we stayed and watch..WAH..I REALLI GT NOTHING TO SAE ABT THE DRUMMER..HE REALLI DAMN TALENTED....haha.... we listened to them played 2 songs..

Outside herren arh..hahahahah. seh notice this couple infront of us..haha..den the guy keep placing his hand ont eh girls butt..haha..den she told me...haha....so funi lor..den we went HMV..there walk walk..haha.... ltr we went action city..she go gaga over the piglets bear lor..haha..beri cute ...den i went to buy dinner for dad....

After that i go send her home..(something got to do wif family teaching lar) took mrt to novena..on the train she keep tellin me abt the date on sundae..haha..she lik beri excited & not excited abt it..haha.....my mum called den i lied to her sae took cab to wrong place dne goin home late...haha...took bus wif her till her house, den she walk wif me to the busstop in gratitude of me sendin her home..haha....reach home abt 1130 liddat..haha....

Tt dae was realli veri wonderful for me..realli nice ot hang out wif frens lik her..bt frenns lik her a rare..realli thank god for letting me noe her,..

haha..hey.., if u readin this rite, i put she to cover ur idntity..haha..hope u dun mind and take care..dun b so troubled by soem things in life, u'll find the wae out de, trust me,,,,take care....

2004-11-26T16:13:00.000-08:00

missing the days in OBS

haiz...long time never come online..nw come online add so many frens in friendster......after adding them, i realise hw much i miss OBS...the time i had there, the people i met there..those whom i met r realli gud pple...thk god fr leting me noe them...bt time cannot b reversed, if not i wuld spend more time wif them..after OBS...we have to carry on wif our life..haix....